Many years ago, I participated in a benefit for the women of Afghanistan. It was the first I had really heard of the Taliban, and Mavis Leno was heading an activist movement to educate American women about the grave state of gender politics in Afghanistan. All the Hollywood actresses, famous and obscure, the Judds (all three!), television and film luminaries, pretty much everyone from Debra Gibson to Carol Burnett came to show their support for the cause.

I don’t like events like this. They make me thirsty and tired. The food is usually the driest chicken in the world. I am going to ask for the recipe next time, in case I want to throw a political fundraiser. Donor Dry Chicken, which sticks in your throat, making you unable to say no when they ask you to volunteer. Not that volunteering is a bad thing. On the contrary, it is the best thing to do, because then you can stay behind the scenes with a headset and let your friends into restricted areas. However, being an attendee at one of these banquets seems to be the last thing anyone wants to do, as you can tell by the attitude of the participants. Everyone is uptight, busting their ass to get good photo-ops, being cloyingly nice to people they don’t like and wondering when they can leave.

This evening wasn’t as bad as they usually are, mostly because I believe in the cause. Global subjugation of women is a perennial outrage, and the way that all these women rallied together to make a statement about their sisters on the other side of the world was a tender gesture. Tenderness is more of a show of strength than brute force, because it is harder to be compassionate than it is to be mighty. Compassion is the paper to might’s stone, it covers completely. We all gave very compassionate soundbites for the rolling cameras. “I can’t believe that in this day and age we can have a society that would allow a woman only ONE OUTFIT!!!” This was example of my brilliance at the time.

There was an awe inspiring group photo, with several generations of Hollywood women, all together, looking at the camera and smiling, in one shot. This was a gargantuan feat of scheduling if nothing else. That is what impresses me most about the Music or Hollywood or any other thematic Vanity Fair cover portraits done by Annie Leibowitz. It is a testament to her own starpower as a photographer, or iconographer, that she can have so many living legends agree to one particular time and place. She must plan really far in advance.

While we were all primping for this grand photographic display of glamour, wealth, power, talent, renown, fame and excess, there was a small gathering of women outside who no one was taking pictures of. They were Muslim women, mostly in Hijabs, the head covering worn as a token of modesty and faith. They carried signs that said, “You don’t understand!”, for what else could they say? The reason why we were unable to understand them wouldn’t fit on one sign, or many signs, because that explanation is such a long one. It encompasses so much history, political upheaval, feminism, advancement toward equality or delusional advancement toward equality.

We as Western women, completely uneducated in the customs of Islam, the subtleties within their laws, the why and how things happen in Muslim culture, can only look at the Taliban’s oppressiveness and misogyny from our own perspective. What if they made us quit our jobs and cover up all our Dolce & Gabbana and Prada with those all encompassing burquas? What if you could only go to the Beverly Center accompanied by a male relative and if you let your arm slip out of the voluminous folds of fabric, they could beat the offending body part with a government issued stick? I would knock that stick right out of my brother’s hand and chase him all the way to the Beverly CONNECTION!!!

Anger at this hideousness is right and completely valid, but it also contains a seed of superiority, as if the women of Afghanistan could not possibly help themselves. They need us, the Ashley Judds and Sharon Stones of the world to step up and lend a perfectly manicured hand. As if the perfectly worded press release or astute observation could possibly solve the world problem. It can, but it also matters to understand what you are talking about, to really observe yourself along with the rest.

The Taliban’s view of women, which centers directly on our bodies, is based in fear. The basic philosophy behind all misogyny is the same. The details merely help us identify the longitude and latitude. Women’s bodies need to be controlled because they are inherently dangerous. Why, I haven’t figured out that far yet, but they apparently just are. To thwart danger, the women of Afghanistan are covered head to toe in fabric. The women of Hollywood are constantly remodeled and modified by dieting and plastic surgery, racked with eating disorders, bombarded with images of what to look like, so many that the images of what not to look like are relegated to artist’s renderings and fear based fantasy portrayals. I think the ideal of youth and thinness is much harder to obtain and maintain than a burqua. Don’t we need help from the women of Afghanistan too?

I don’t mean to belittle the brave and astonishingly powerful work done on behalf of the women of Afghanistan, especially by Mavis Leno. Things have changed drastically since the fall of the Taliban, and according to Donald Rumsfeld, women can walk freely in the street, liberated and unencumbered by extremist laws. I hate it when the neo-cons tout feminism as the reasoning behind invading the Middle East. Like Rumsfeld has a nightshirt that reads “C-U-N-T.”

If I could turn back time like Cher, then I would go back to that benefit and stand with the women outside and tell them, “I still don’t understand, but I am trying to.” Really that is all that we can do, isn’t it? Stand together and try to understand each other?

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What exactly did Martha Stewart do that was so wrong that she needs to go to jail for five months? I don’t think she is any danger to herself or society. Getting her off the streets and into the Big House just doesn’t make sense. Why are we wasting all this taxpayer money to put her in her place? It isn’t worth it. I am not afraid of Martha Stewart. I think prison should be for people who may be harmful to others, and I just cannot imagine that her passion for entertaining is going to turn her into a menace to society.

I am not sure prison is used in the right way in our country. We have it as a place of punishment, but exactly what is the point of punishing some people? What is the cautionary tale brought forth by this odd set of circumstance? Are we not supposed to have ambition? Don’t use raffia. Do not garnish. Never know what fork you are going to use. Never set down more utensils than is absolutely necessary. One would imagine that Martha Stewart’s efforts would be welcomed by a patriarchal system, one that naturally subjugates women and finds their silence and labor virtuous.

The problem is that Martha Stewart was not a homemaker. She was an entrepeneur. She was not selling the recipes and party plans and ‘good things’ in order to promote stay at home moms and give undue labor to keep women’s minds from wandering to books and feminist theory. She was promoting the idea of perfection, wherever you could have it. It was about that notion of perfecting something, and then it becoming yours. This was the American Dream as it could be made accessible to American women. You could empower yourself through action, and that is probably the danger that Martha Stewart represents. She is the authority on independence, and that is what we don’t want from our mothers and for our daughters.

You can’t wear a burqua and tie raffia properly. You need freedom and a wide table if you want to make your own marshmallows or liquid soap from scratch. The thought that putting Martha away for a time is some kind of blow to the misogynist family structure is dangerous. If anything, she is a political prisoner. America doesn’t like women who are powerful and successful and not nice about it.

That was the main criticism against Stewart. She wasn’t a nice lady. Why are manners always going to have to be part of the package? If you mind your p’s and q’s, is that going to be what keeps you out of jail? The problem of minding your manners is one that might keep you locked down, in the realm of thought that would make your life unremarkable, that mediocrity on any level is preferable to excess of ambition, desire and greed. What is so wrong with greed? It is what makes the world go around.

Martha Stewart is a political prisoner. The unceremonious denial of her freedom should make us seriously question our own.

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Margaret received these letters immediately following this post and this post from the right wing website, Free Republic. We originally posted the emails with all the names and return addresses intact, but eventually had to remove them because we became aware they were being contacted by many of Margaret’s outraged fans.

Free Republic, which a Klan/Neo-Nazi site called “packed full of our target audience,” counts among its posters, Jerry Corsi (co-author of Unfit For Command) and Harry W. MacDougald, aka Buckhead (the first person to “notice” that the CBS documents obtained by Dan Rather may have been forged). These people are organized racist, misogynist, homophobic bigots, and as they begin to get acknowledged by the mainstream press for defending this administration, they are becoming even more empowered.

Here’s another fun story about how one of these “freepers” tried to get Margaret fired.

Here are the letters:

—– Original Message —–
From: Nero
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 7:56 AM
Subject: Your cool

GOOK CUNT, You fat ass slant eyed WHORE. YOU SUCK LIBERAL COCK

—– Original Message —–
From: M346r4
To: margaret
Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 9:17 AM
Subject: Hi

Dear Margaret,
I just wanted to let you know how much I admire you! For someone with your background to achieve the level of success you have is incredible. It seems like only yesterday that Chinese scientists successfully cross-breeded a pot-belly pig and a Chink whore. 9 months later you were born!
Your’e disgustingly fat pig face with the yellow skin and and slant eyes has been with us ever since! And not to mention your horrid attempt at humor. Wow!! What a gift you’ve been to humanity!

Keep up the terrible work!

Long-time Fan

—– Original Message —–
From: “mikey cobain”
To: Subject: YOU

It's really pathetic when a disgusting cunt like you
tries to be funny. YOU are NOT funny. Maybe to some
mentally disturbed serial killer you are funny, but
that's about it. I have a great idea, why don't you
move to china and try your comedy there. Maybe they
will appreciate it more. If not, maybe they will cut
your fucking head off. We can only hope.

----- Original Message -----
From: john zaroian
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 2:11 PM
Subject: Moby

Hey dig this BUSH WILL WIN....Whatsammatter fat ass, cant take the heat. Eat some dog like your freinds back home. Its what you look like anyway you scumbag Chowface..

----- Original Message -----
From: Greg Pearlstone
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 4:59 PM
Subject: You disgusting "pseudo-American"

Shut your disgusting face, you loser. You have some nerve coming to America, denouncing us, and making your fortune.

Go home you freakin Asian scum.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Hank
To: Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 11:04 AM
Subject: Your recent anti american diatribe

Never heard of you before seeing the item on the
Drudge Report. Where did you learn such foul
language. Went to your website and soon discovered
that you are queer, too. Get a life, will you.

Concerned Citizen

----- Original Message -----
From: Tina
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 5:32 PM
Subject: I support you!

I find you to be a disgusting, misguided PIG! You need to seek medical help because you have what the psychiatric profession calls a MENTAL DISORDER! You hate filled moron! You must have had some sweet childhood to act out of so much HATE and INTOLERANCE! How do you sleep at night filled with such ire and hatred? I feel sorry for your ignorance, you poor thing. Do us Americans and favour and check your sad self into a mental hospital! And take homoby with you!

----- Original Message -----
From: Danlor
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 5:30 PM
Subject: fat bitch

right wingers unite to fight liberal fat bitches like you!!!!

----- Original Message -----
From: Tom
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 5:28 PM

Ms. Cho,

I will make you a deal, if you book a flight to North Korea, stand on the Tarmac of the airport and say the same things about North Korea's president that you said about Mr. Bush, and live to make the return trip back to the back to the U.S., not only will I pay your plane ticket both ways, I will also buy every CD/DVD that you have ever released and any that you release in the future. I will also become one of your biggest fans.

Why would I make such an offer? Because you are all mouth and you know that you could never get away with what you are able to get away with in the U.S., thanks to the rights that even ungracious overweight pigs like you enjoy here in the U.S., rights and freedoms that came at the hands of early Americans who fought and died to that end.

If Korea was such a great place, why didn't your parents or great grandparents stay there instead of immigrating to the U.S.?

You probably think of yourself as some talented entertainer but doesn't it bother you to think that the only reason you have gained a measurable amount of celebrity status is because you attract only left-wing thinking liberals who are anti-American, anti-family, porno-producing perverts? It takes a lot of talent to use the "f" word as creatively as you do.

Here is a suggestion for your "show," wear a tent shaped piece of Plexiglas on your head and bill yourself as the "BIG FAT ASSED HUMAN CHINESE BUFFET."

Your fellow American,

Tom

----- Original Message -----
From: "Nick
To: Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 5:04 PM
Subject: Questions 3

Was it after the TV show got cancelled and you couldn't afford to
finish the liposuction?
Sleeping with Michael Moore's wife?
Or shall we just blame your Mom as that seems an easy out for you?

What pushed you over the edge?

ND

----- Original Message -----
From: "Wingates"
To: Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 4:52 AM
Subject: not at all hate mail

...and your routine at the HateFest was not at all funny. It was offensive.
Radical Liberals are such a minority in this country; why don't you switch
sides? You'd make more money.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Lloyd "
To: Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 4:01 PM
Subject: Open your eyes

It never fails to amaze me that the very people who should appreciate an American government who has given them the opportunities they have are the first ones to try tearing it down. You don't deserve to live in the USA you ungrateful fat pig. You belong in NORTH Korea. They are real hungry there and that wonderful Korean government would most likely feed an oinker like you to a family of 10 for about 6 months.

You are not good enough to be the puss in a boil on George Bush's ass, you scabbed up scumbag. Go back to Korea! Decent people don't want you here any more. I used to think you were funny. After you bashed MY president I see you as just another left-wing puke. I wanna vomit every time I see your fat putrid ugly face on TV. And just for the record, I was not influenced by the Drudge Report. I was influenced by seeing and hearing your degrading performance at your last "bash Bush" gathering with all your left-wing commie brethren. I wish you all the worst luck in the world. You don't deserve success in America, you're too busy tearing it down.

Why don't you move to mainland China? Try bashing their premier and see how much longer you breath. You ungrateful hog.
Your truly,
Paul
New Mexico

----- Original Message -----
From: MarchRain
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 3:42 PM
Subject: you

Get out of my country. Evil comes in many forms, to make us laugh, to play funny good guy, to have us join the group mind. You are doomed. No peace will come to you in this lifetime.

----- Original Message -----
From: Zibrasit
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 2:54 PM
Subject: If you are funny, I am Queen Elizabeth

Using the f--- word every second does not make you funny or humorous; it makes you pathetic. Had you been funny your TV show would not have been canceled in a minute.
Shut up, lose weight and take a bath.

Michelle

----- Original Message -----
From: "Robert "
To: Subject: Heil Cho

Congratulations to Drudge for bringing your delightful remarks to us
all. Kim Jong Il loves you, babe! Isn't it funny all those starving
Koreans in the North? No, not just funny but f**king funny?
Drudge had the perfect picture of your grinning fat face. Do you eat
tree bark like your countrymen? I remember you once made some cheap
joke about Pearl Harbor and I thought then that you, while not an idiot,
could become one if you f**king tried. I see, you'reeeeeee back.
Speaking of humor, "Up the chimney" as 'ol Hitler used to say about
another funny episode in history. Hitler once commented to Moby, "who
loves you, baby! Come visit one of my camps and take a shower." Tee
hee, tee hee. Donchajustluvit seeing all those starving Koreans and
Jews? Their expressions are sooooo funny. Just like deers caught in the
headlights. Truly a Kodak moment.
It's funny how some fat round faces don't know the difference between
evil and a democratically elected head-of- state, head-of-government,
head of party and decent all American like Bush. It's even more funny
how some admire those pulled out of spider holes and those who feed tree
bark to their people. All the best in your funny career and in your
trivializing of evil. As you can see from my love letter to you, I,
too, love trivializing evil. You are sooooooo funny or as 'ol Hitler
liked to say: Vu R soooooo f**king Vunny. Regards to Moby whoever
he/she/it is. Drudge is the man!!! And, yes, it's true after seeing
your picture: s**t happens.
So long, I've got to MoveOn.org. Heil Cho, Heil Soros, Heil all you
naughtly little vermin out there in left field especially, you, Margie,
with the little fat round face and the swatiska on your butte. And
remember if you want to repent, vote Republican and vote often.
Chop/chop bambino.

----- Original Message -----
From: Ron J
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 11:56 AM
Subject: Gleetings Ms. Cho

You glate woman comeedian to expoze imperialist Bush as capitalist warmonga! Wud like velly mush to vite you to tanksagibing dinna my house nex ya. I hav plan buttaball Doberman…..wit hushapuppy (reel puppy)…...velly tasty….you like! You come, OK?

Kim Jong Il

----- Original Message -----
From: Harry
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 9:31 PM
Subject: WHY

WHY ARE YOU SO UGLY?

----- Original Message -----
From: peter
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 9:14 AM
Subject: I think your great

I find it hilarious that you get so offended when someone attacks you. You liberals are so hypocritical, you use f-work laced rant when talking about George Bush and you cry like the fat pig you are when someone does the same to you. I wish nothing but the worse for you and will be praying that you develop cancer or AIDS.

God Bless

----- Original Message -----
From: charles
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 10:21 AM
Subject: hey

GO BACK TO ASIA CUNT.

WE DON'T NEED TO LISTEN TO YOUR SLANTTY RANTS.

FUCKING CUNTS LIKE YOU MAKE ME SICK

GO FUCK YOURSELF.

----- Original Message -----
From:
To:

YOU FAT CHINK BITCH!! HOW DARE YOU CRITICIZE THIS PRESIDENT. YOU AND YOUR SEXUALLY DEVIATE FRIENDS COULDN'T CLEAN HIS SHOES. I ESPECIALLY LIKE YOUR WELL INFORMED ARGUMENTS AGAINST THE PRESIDENT'S POLICIES, YEA, "BUSH SUCKS" IS A REAL ARGUMENT WINNER. YOUR IGNORANCE AND VULGARITY ARE ALMOST COMPATIBLE TO YOUR LAME ACTING ABILITIES. YOU AND MOBY DESERVE ONE ANOTHER.

----- Original Message -----
From: SirRosis
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 10:59 AM
Subject: Stop whining

1/23/04

I'm not offended by your comments about Bush.The man has been a dreadful failure and this is coming from a conservative.That said,YOU insult anybody that doesn't agree with your agenda and then when you get "insulting" e-mails you cry about it.Grow up,you brought this on yourself.This may shock you,but you are a NOBODY.You're an obese,Oriental(I know you must hate that term) lesbian-THAT is your claim to fame.A hack "comedianne" is what you are and you are not funny.I could care less if you're a muff-diving,Sapphic sister -you're a dyke-and in your milieu that's accepted and lauded,but the rest of us find you noisome and rebarbative.300LBS,Oriental and lesbian-a great combination for San Fran,NYC,Boston and L.A. ,but the rest of the country are repulsed by you.

Sir Rosis
P.S. ARE MY SHIRTS READY? and I have the number 22 with chow mein.Thanks

----- Original Message -----
From: CUVELLO
To: margaret
Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 12:39 AM
Subject: funny

YOU UGLY PIECE OF SHIT!

----- Original Message -----
From: "Dave"
To: Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 9:33 PM
Subject: Blow me!

Fat Cunt Chinese women. Bush is the best!

----- Original Message -----
From: "titus
To: Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 5:44 PM
Subject: You're Pathetic!

You fat filthy pig! You think because you "call yourself" a comedian,
you can spew hate against others, yet call them haters when they return fire. You're pathetic, no wonder you tried to kill yourself!

Yes, I'm a conservative and I don't mind stepping down into the filthy
gutter where you and your ilk (i.e., pervert liberals) reside, if that's where I have to go to communicate with you idiots.

Please, by all means, you and your friends keep talking, so everybody on the other side politically and in the middle who lean right when they hear you speak, will know what you're all about.

To be honest, I was shocked to hear you're actually earning a living, even if it only keeps you housed in a van down by the river. I actually
thought you had off'ed yourself by now, after having to listen to your own dribble!

Copy this to Moby. I want to hear and see more of him too. You both are great for the cause.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Ed "
To: Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 7:08 AM
Subject: Kudos

Way to go you fat slope whore. Go back to Korea you obese pig.

----- Original Message -----
From: LAUPE
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 6:58 AM
Subject: Yobo seo

Since you have so many vulgar things to say about America, I suggest you move to North Korea from whence your ancestors come, you filthy, ugly person. You wouldn't be shooting your ugly mouth off over there would you carpet muncher.

----- Original Message -----
From: daniel
To: karen
Cc: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 6:43 AM
Subject: wang chung

Please forward to Margaret

Dear chung lee,
Please go back where you came from. We don't need anymore people like you in this country. I hope you have aids and pass it to all your liberal commie homo friends. Your a slut and a lard ass. Please take Rosie O'donnel back home with u, I'm sure yall will have a lot of fun together eating sushi and having dildo fights. Stupid ninja

Aids Cures Gays

----- Original Message -----
From: Tony
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 6:09 AM
Subject: bush bashing

margaret cho is a slanted eye bitch...i dont buy her stuff...i dont watch her on tv...if she doesnt like america and our president then tell her to go the hell back to asia...she doesnt have problem with taking money from america...so margaret....go back to asia you slanted eye slut....

----- Original Message -----
From: dagoofyfoot
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 23, 2004 5:49 AM
Subject: Damn You're Ugly!

If you're as funny as you are ugly you could be headed for a great career. I suggest you lay off the Chow Mien for a while, you're starting to look like 200 lbs of crap in a 100 lb. sack.

As you probably know now, I read that crap you spew out of your pie-hole on the Drudge Report, and then went to your web site. It's good that you're a comedienne, cause you sure couldn't make it with those looks as an actress.

If you don't make it, you would probably do pretty good at haunting houses for a living. With a face like that you'd be sure to drive the spooks right out! It's clear that you're just as ugly on the inside as you are on the outside...

by the way, what you said, is it supposed to be funny?.......you suck!

Not a fan
Tony C.

----- Original Message -----
From: MMARCUS
To: margaret
Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 3:29 AM
Subject: email

go home u slant fat bitch

----- Original Message -----
From: Pablo
To: margaret
Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 3:37 AM

You are a disgusting fat gook. Go back to China where you belong.

----- Original Message -----
From: Exmutt
To: margaret
Sent: Saturday, January 24, 2004 4:21 AM
Subject: (no subject)

I"d like 2 eggrolls, a small hot & sour, and some pork fried rice...THEN, get the fuck out of my country and take that little faggot moby with you...

try that little bullshit gag of yours in north korea..they'll be searching for your remains...

----- Original Message -----
From: chris
To: margaret
Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 6:01 PM
Subject: hi

Fuck you you oriental cunt. you are not even an american. You are soooo stupid. Go fuck yourself and go back to Asia you slanted eye whore.

----- Original Message -----
From: chris
To: margaret
Sent: Sunday, January 18, 2004 7:42 PM
Subject: Sorry

I'm sorry Margaret. Please accept my apology. I was wrong. We differ on opinion when it comes to politics. What I e-mailed you was wrong. It was hate filled and that is not the kind of person I am. Please forgive me.
Chris

----- Original Message -----
From: Dave
To: margaret
Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 4:19 PM
Subject: Comments about Bush

Given your recent comments about President Bush at the MoveOn.org awards, you obviously have no problems with personal attacks.
Therefore I thought I'd take a moment to let you know that most people think you are a no talent, fat, washed up a-hole.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Tom"
To: Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 6:33 PM

which way does your pussy slant, baby? this is important, since you are
certainly quite unfunny.

----- Original Message -----
From: Mike
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:30 AM
Subject: your parents must be proud

of what?

who knows.

their daughter is an insecure, arrogant, butt-ugly, obnoxious, potty-mouthed, uneducated, fat liberal who makes fun of God and christians all the time.

(funny how that works, ...God has the power to simply SPEAK the entire world into existence, and idiots all over his creation make fun of him, regardless of what he has in store for those who choose NOT to believe.)

Put the cheeseburger down, pull Clinton's dick out of your mouth, and wise up. Because the people who adore you have AIDS for a REASON.

----- Original Message -----
From: petey
To: margaret
Sent: Tuesday, January 20, 2004 4:11 PM
Subject: President Bush

Hey Margaret,
Don't say anything bad about my president, you fat piece of Mongolian dogshit. Go back to your own Country if you don't it here. And as a comedian, you are a sad joke.

----- Original Message -----
From: fansong77
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 21, 2004 4:50 PM
Subject: First Amendment

I must say, I am a huge proponent of the 1st Amendment. Having spent 23 yrs in the military, I was willing to sacrifice my life so you could speak freely in our society. And as such, I will now speak mine.

I saw on the internet your "comic" review and subsequent defense by Moby (whoever the fuck that is) of President Bush. I realize it was all in joking, so as a free speaking (let's save the whole fucking world with kindness) liberal, I'm sure you won't mind me speaking mine. I also realize you don't have the balls (what cunt does?) to reply to this, but here goes anyway.

Q: Did you hear that Margaret Cho's real last name is Chocking?
A: She had so much cock down her throat she couldn't get all the syllables out?

Q: Did you notice how much weight Margaret has lost lately?
A: Naturally, one tends to loose weight sucking cock all night!

Q: What do Eva Braun and Margaret Cho have in common?
A: They both think Hitler fucked them up the ass!

Q: What does Hitler and Margaret Cho have in common?
A: Both now realize the United States can kick anyone's ass!

I have one last thing to say. (Don't you just love free speech?) If you don't like the country in which you live, I will pay for you to leave, as long as you never return. I have no problem with you disagreeing with the President. I do however find it disgusting in which the way you do it. I didn't hear you ranting and raving about Slick Dick Willy getting a blowjob from Monica. Where the fuck were you then? I know...I know, he didn't inhale so it was ok. At least President Bush stands up for what is right, and is someone you can count on not to hid when the shit hits the fan. You and the rest of the moveon.org shitbags can go fuck themselves, but that is just my humble opinion. Us military veterans tend to express ourselves in no uncertain terms, so if you are upset and offended by my words, well hell, I guess I just won't know if I will be able to sleep tonight or not. But hey, what the fuck, you don't know me and I don't know you. This is just my "comic" review! Get a life, a real life and join the rest of the human race.

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----- Original Message -----
From: sjoyce
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:40 AM
Subject: Move on.org comments

Just a quick note to let you know that after reading your comments from the move on . org awards I was disgusted. Your comments were totally uncalled for. Why don't you you take your fat slant eyed head and go back to China.

F__k You

----- Original Message -----
From: lloyd
To: margaret
Sent: Monday, January 19, 2004 6:48 AM

Just another stupid lesbo chink

----- Original Message -----
From: lloyd early
To: karen
Sent: Monday, January 19, 2004 2:31 PM
Subject: Re:

I have class. Something you clitoris suckers know nothing about.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Steve C
To: Sent: Tuesday, January 20, 2004 5:43 AM
Subject: Fuck You Wang Chung

You are a no talent hack ! Go back to whatever third world country your
family hails from. Isn't it great that we live in a country where I can
tell you to go fuck yourself ? The only thing funny about you is when
you pour your fat ass into the tight leather outfits. Start shopping at
Lane Bryant !!

----- Original Message -----
From: Dave & Debra
To: margaret
Sent: Tuesday, January 20, 2004 12:08 PM

On you comments about Republicans. After reading you gibberish, You have proved to the world what a true fucking idiot you really are. By the way, after you receive enough money from the dumb shit libs that buy your trash, you might consider buying a new face. Your about the ugliest fucking cunt I've seen plastered in public for sometime. Hell, If I shaved my dogs ass and made him walk backwards he'd look better than you Cho.

----- Original Message -----
From: bbarras
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 21, 2004 6:10 PM
Subject: Homeland

Time to head home Kiddo.

You have proven yourself to be one who has no right to live in America.

Your family should go too. If they approve of your behavior, that is.

Go back home.Stay there. America is not your home, it's mine.

Being born here is just not enough, in your case. You deserve Korea at it's worst. Trash America? Then why haven't you left here? DUH?? Lemme guess...

You'll be a big star there. Lotsa drugs, no morals or IQ required. Just your cup of tea. You can stay the slut 24/7. Not sure how your language will help you in the marriage market, but then again, if you don't marry, you won't breed.

Works for me!

You know what? All your feelings of inferitority were right.

You are pure garbage.

---- Original Message -----
From: bass
To: margaret
Sent: Saturday, January 17, 2004 12:49 AM
Subject: Don't Worry

I know they said: Fuck You you oriental bitch . You are not even an american. You are soooo stupid. Go fuck yourself with that nigger rapper D and go back to Asia you slanted eye whore.
and I know they said:Why don't take your slant-eyed ass back to the orient if you don't like it here, you worthless troll.

and I know they said:most people think you are a no talent, fat, washed up a-hole

and I know they said you are a butt-ugly, obnoxious, potty-mouthed, uneducated, fat liberal who makes fun of God and christians all the time.
and I know they said: Why don't you you take your fat slant eyed head and go back to China

and I know they said: I am hoping you develop breast cancer or contract a flesh-eating disease and pass it on to your whole f'n family... you bitch.
and I know they said:You sure are UG-LY.
and I know they said :in this country, you can look like a stuck pig (see http://www.drudgereport.com) You must admit you are one ugly bitch in this picture. and spout inane, vulgar, untruths....that are bought only in your adopted home town.

and then they said: b!tch I am from the south and proud of it...at least I can't be blindfolded with dental floss. And I saw your picture from the other night and it looks like you have more chins under your mouth than you had at your family reunion

and then they said:

Harro ms cho

light ring rut here. we grive u new klorian name, u = wan fat ho u arsso Femernazi too. and big blitch

If you cant trake humor...dont dish it out...al lite?? slant eye

hoo coome uo face soo flat like pamkake

last kreston jokie for you! Wat you crall 2 Klorians with headcold ??? answer..".gook, gook atchew.."

I know that this is what they said, but most just want you dead. A disease to this nation. A cancer upon our country. I can only pray that you will be defeated and destroyed for the good of all......

----- Original Message -----
From:
To: Sent: Thursday, January 15, 2004 8:11 PM
Subject: Re: Abolish/Boycott (Closet) Racism & Stereotyping

Karen,

Thanks for bringing the e-mail to Margaret's attention. Please let Margaret know that I am a comedian also, I will soon go into a studio to record my material and send it to her for production. My routine is like hers--sick, vulgar, profane, and so left-wing. Here is some of it.

"I was hangin out the other day and looked back into the dressing room of the moveon.org show I was attendin. I saw Margaet Cho sucking pimple juice off Chuck D's dick! Ha ha. After Chuck D dropped his load on Margaret, I saw her bend over for Al Franken, Ha ha. Well Al, the big fat liar was too puny and soft for Margaret so she got his left wing nut in her mouth and bit it, ha ha. Then Margaret started telling Julia Stiles how much she loved blondes and that all Koreans wanted to suck a white blonde leftist pussy, ha ha. So Julia bares her left-wing free speech clitois for Margaret, who looked at it and said, "Wow, just like the American Constitution, I love free speech and pussy at the same time. Can I talk dirty to it Julia?" Ha ha."

Well Karen, that is all the material I have at this time. I know it is not quite up to the left wing hate mongering of Margaret but I'll work on it.

Have a big left wing laugh there. I love Margaret's free speech models.

----- Original Message -----
From: David
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:28 AM
Subject: Bush Bashing

You are a f'n loser... I am hoping you develop breast cancer or contract a flesh-eating disease and pass it on to your whole f'n family... you bitch.

It is liberal democrats that are f'n up the world. Women have had over 40,000,000 abortions in 30 years, that more lives killed then men in this country have killed in all the wars we have fought in combined. At least men can claim they did it in the name of LIBERTY and FREEDOM, women claim they kill in the name of CHOICE?

----- Original Message -----
From: Wes
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:04 PM
Subject: I wish for unlimited abortions

That way your mother could still abort you. You are about as funny as you are good looking. By the way, thanks for convincing my family to vote for George W. Bush.

----- Original Message -----

From: Sped
To: karen
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 6:24 AM
Subject: BOYCOTT CHO.COM

IT AINT FUNNY TO DISS HALF THE US POPULATION!!!!
SUGGEST THIS PUPPY GET A CIVICS EXAM OR ELSE TURN IN HER GREEN CARD !!!
WE ARE A CHRISTIAN NATION WHO LET HER KIN IN TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE
GET WITH THE PROGRAM OR GET OUT

----- Original Message -----
From: Sped
To: margaret
Sent: Thursday, January 15, 2004 7:50 AM
Subject: Re: Appalling Emails

Harro ms cho

light ring rut here. we grive u new klorian name, u = wan fat ho
u arsso Femernazi too. and big blitch

If you cant trake humor...dont dish it out...al lite??

last kreston?? wat you crall 2 Klorians with headcold ???
answer..".gook, gook atchew.."

SIGNED DENNIS MILLER SAN..

----- Original Message -----
From: Cathy
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 5:32 AM
Subject: Pictrure on Drudge Report

After seeing your picture (ugh) on the Drudge Report, I can certainly understand why you are a lesbian. I'm sure all the straight men in the world are happy about that too. You sure are UG-LY.

Cat in TEXAS

----- Original Message -----
From: "David"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 4:59 AM
Subject: Comments at Moveon.org

Dear fat gook: I was disappointed to read your remarks today on Drudge.
I was disappointed to read that you are just another Hollywood
dicksucker.

Instead of trying to be funny, why don't you devise a plan on
terrorism? What would and your Hollywood buddies do, other than gobble
knobs? Talk is cheap.

Love you long time.

----- Original Message -----
From: Rick
To: margaret ; karen
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 8:32 AM
Subject: Asain loser

Your an overweight idiot that has no talent except shock comedy. Impressive.....

When you came to Hawaii I found you kind of funny except that you used profanity too much and now I see why. You don't have enough talent to make jokes that appeal to anyone except a bunch of clueless college students. It's a safe bet you can't go any further than that because a Chinese Rosie O'Donnell is about as desirable as an overflowing toilet, which most of your race based jokes sound like.

BC in '04!!!

----- Original Message -----
From: "Abig"
To: Sent: Thursday, January 15, 2004 12:27 PM
Subject: moveon meeting

You are an unfunny gluttonous drunken drug addict with little talent who
mocks your own race to eek out a living. You are an incredidble contribution
to the human race...NOT!

Pissed yourself in bed lately?

---- Original Message -----
From: R
To: margaret
Sent: Thursday, January 15, 2004 5:30 AM
Subject: You go girl

You go get the fuck out of the country if you hate it so bad. Spcialist party members such as yourself and the rest of the hollywood ilk that infests this country should leave just like some of you promised. But then again you're the party of rapists, murderers, thieves, pornographers and the like. Why we would expect anythig different from people so full of hate and contempt for anything good my country stands for.

I swore to defend my country from enemies foreign and domestic for 15 years but its people like you that make me sick knowing I and many others have given our time and lives to defend assholes like you. You're nothing but a two bit skank and I hope you choke on that microphone!!!

----- Original Message -----
From: Jim
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 2:33 AM
Subject: Regarding Your Bush Comments

Gee! Now that it is open season on blogs, how about coming down to my pig farm. You look like some good stock to breed with my pigs. In fact, if I have one that looks exactly like you I can sell more pigs to the Chinatowns across the U.S.

It is too bad your such a stupid arrogant idiot who life is full of pampering and stupid left wing ideology. It is just too bad that you give a fuck less about the people who have been murdered, tortured and raped in Iraq, or the other 100 millions of people that have been killed throughout the last 70 years because of leftist thinkers who support tyrants and dictators like yourself. Too, bad you’re too stupid to understand. What a pity, what a waste of talent.

However, not is all wasted if you come down to my pig farm. In another month it will be breeding season.

----- Original Message -----

From: David
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 8:10 AM

After the moveon.org event, the only thing I find funny about you is that melon head flat face of yours! Now that's funny! Not your political tanting....take a vacation back in the homeland of your forefathers and see how that works for ya!

----- Original Message -----
From: dennis
To: karen
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 7:04 AM
Subject: comment about the asian pig

I saw your thing on Drudge Report. You and your people are abortionist bitches. With Thank said, I do wish your mothers had the foresight to have had abotions.... you fucking bastyardettes would not be here destorying our society.

----- Original Message -----

From:
To: Subject: You stupid cunt

Your a dumb,queer,ugly,fucking zipperhead that don't know shit about politics.Do you really think that you are going to change anyone's mind about this President.I can't wait to hear all of you fucked up liberals cry when Bush wins 48 states.
By the way did I tell you YOU SUCK

----- Original Message -----
From: TEAK
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 16, 2004 4:26 PM
Subject: What's the problem?

What did I say that gets you liberals so worked up(I forgot liberals don't work).Lets be fair.
I am a White-Male-Heterosexual-American-Conservative.I can't help it if only a few of us got all the right stuff from GOD.I am not very educated,have a small gut,am balding,have hemeriods,two kids that love me,and a wife that doesn't.
Now I have stated my side very frankly.
Lets look at yours.Are you overweight?Yes.Then you are fat.
Are you asian?Yes.Then you are a zipperhead.
Are you gay?Yes.Then you are a queer.
Are you on the wrong side of the political spectrom?Yes.then you are a liberal.
Is any of that a LIE,or liberal spin?No.Than you suck.
Most of the mail I have received since my first one has been filled with as much bad stuff as I used.I used the same as Miss Queer did when she stood on a stage and berated my president.If she can use that language,and you can use that language,than why can't I?
Don't be mad because GOD gave it all to GOOD Americans like me.Be greatful you live the the Greatest country GOD ever made.If you are woman, get a sex change.If your queer you can go back in the closet where you belong.If your fat you can go on a diet.If your ugly you can have surgery.If your a liberal you can read the Limbaugh letter,log onto Drudge,and listen to Hannity.Or read Ann Coulter.There is hope for you assholes.I hope I have been of some assistence.If I spelled anything wrong,or used bad grammer,it is because I was educated in a public school run by a liberal teachers union.Their is nothing you can do if you are not an American.GOD can only fit so many of us in here.

----- Original Message -----
From: Jack
To: 'margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 6:39 AM
Subject: Bush hatred

Boy, you just crapped in your lunch pail, everyone in my office just read the transcript of your little childish display at that moveon hate bush bash. All in our office despite our political persuasions thin you have hit the wall. We have decided that we will not attend any concert, watch any cable or pay per view engagement you are connected with and will aggressively go on the offensive to have you labeled what you are, a tasteless parasite. We have penned a letter of our feelings and we are sending it to all media outlets, entertainment channels and other pertainent entertainment officials. Good Luck with your life, you just lost many loyal fans.

Our office group

----- Original Message -----
From: Nancie
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 7:47 PM
Subject: What's the difference ...

What’s the difference between Margaret Cho and a pig?

The pig weighs much less and has better manners.

----- Original Message -----
From: Faust
To: margaret
Sent: Thursday, January 15, 2004 8:05 AM
Subject: HI ARSE

how droll of you you fat ass

----- Original Message -----
From: Bobbie
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 4:54 PM
Subject: YOU ARE AN UNFUNNY STUPID IDIOT!!!!

I am a republican and far from stupid. You however are an ignorant ass wipe!!!!

----- Original Message -----
From: Steve
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 3:07 PM
Subject: Socialist/Leftist Garbage

Why don't you take your extreme hateful left wing trash talk..... say to Cuba permanently! You leftist nitwit. I will never watch any of your "performances" and If I come across you on the telley I will change channels immediately. You truly are a socialist PIG.

God bless America and God bless George Bush!

----- Original Message -----
From: "mike"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 12:40 PM
Subject: bush

How did your head get so big? I mean, physically, its bigger than Rosie's!!!
It has got to be more than 8 pounds. Just the size of it is enoorrmousss.

Oh, and I like my 10 commandments. thanks and Fuck you.

MSG

----- Original Message -----
From: "Daved"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 12:11 PM
Subject: moveon

Oink oink
Sincerely,
Daved

----- Original Message -----
From: Hawk
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 10:32 AM
Subject: News photo

Margaret,
You're fat. You used to be sort of attractive, but now you look like Roseanne. If you were smart or funny it probably wouldn't matter that you are fat, but sadly you're not smart or funny. The transcript of your comments from the the moveon.org event indicates that you are just a fat has-been that isn't particularly bright. Too bad... there was once a time when I thought you had some minuscule particle of promise. Well, I have to go now, but please feel free to drop me a line, and please spell out the curse words those dots and dashes are very annoying. What does F--k You mean anyhow? Does that mean Fuck You?
Very Best Regards,
Hawk

----- Original Message -----
From: "Venturini"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 10:10 AM
Subject: republicans

Isn't it true that margaret truly started supporting Democrats when she
found out that they were letting fat brunettes suck their penises????

----- Original Message -----
From: Bill
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:54 AM
Subject: qualification to be a political commentator

A fat korean pig --- blessed to be living in the USA-- should keep mouth shut unless you earning living like your mother used to do with GI before getting to move here----go to korea or china or someplace you fit in--------

P.S. you ain't funny either----

----- Original Message -----
From: Ashley
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:51 AM

i'd love to see the job you'd do running the country, you fat pig.

----- Original Message -----
From: bill
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:53 AM
Subject: Bush

After seeing your performance i've decided your nothing but a fat pig........

Bill Beames

----- Original Message -----
From: m h
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:38 AM
Subject: Your meeting

Dear Margaret-

there are many thoughts that come to mind after i read your diatribe at the moveon.org meeting.

the simplest comment is, describing yourself as a comedian requires using the term loosely.

In reality you are an overweight, crude, repulsive individual. I do not believe that crude commentary that lacks thought or even creativity passes as comedy.

Listen get on the Adkins and lay off the pastries.

----- Original Message -----
From: Johnny
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:06 AM
Subject: MoveOn

God you are a cunt.

----- Original Message -----
From: Chris
To: margaret
Sent: Friday, January 16, 2004 10:04 AM
Subject: Fuck off fat girl

Dear Margret,

The problem with people like yourself is that through your words and actions you come off no better than the people that you loathe and attack.

You should really stick to being a fat lesbian slope that is blessed to be in this country so you can indulge in all of your disgutsing habits without fear of repercussions - except some profanity laced hate mail. Be glad you aren't Chinese, a culture that condones killing female babies. Then again - maybe it is too bad you weren't born Chinese. And if you don't want the hate mail than I suggest you shut the fuck up.

As far as publishing my email - i could give a fuck. Publish it. i welcome any and all hate mail from you Liberal douchebags.

In closing, I would just like to say that this world would be much better off if you, and people that share your asinine opinions, were to die and be wiped off the face of this Earth. People like yourself don't even deserve the gift of lfe because you don't know how to handle it.

So fuck you, fuck your stinky and nasty Korean heritage, fuck your liberal point of view, and fuck your idiotic comments that you made at the MoveOn ceremony - in reality, they weren't even remotely funny.

You are just another liberal peice of shit that should be flushed.

Chris

----- Original Message -----
From: "Rob" Last name and email address deleted upon request and apology*
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 8:38 AM
Subject: God Bless President Bush...

...and his love of America. Moveon.org sucks and so do you. If
Moveon.org hates the government so it should stop taking its money.
Your all a bunch of self-righteous pimps and whores.
4 more years!!!

Rob Last name and phone number deleted by request upon apology*

*...As I mentioned I had never done this sort of thing before and now I'm sorry that I did...Thanks for your help!

----- Original Message -----
From: Salvatore
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 7:54 AM
Subject: Just saw your photo on Drudge

Dear Ms. Cho,

I just saw your photo on Drudge and now I know why you are a Queer. Most of the men that I know would rather kiss the ass of a dog (if they were not afraid that you would try to eat it) that kiss you.

Isn't it great that you live in a society where disgusting people like you are able to succeed.

Regards,

Sal

----- Original Message -----
From: Ayerst
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 8:07 AM
Subject: Hmmmmmm

Kweisi Mfume, Mr. Clinton and his wife, gay pride, NOW, pro-choice'ers...............What do these 5 things have in common?? Why, there are all close associates of Margaret Chow (as in CHOW down), of course.

Yes, I think these five associations of Margaret Cho's sum her up pretty well. She is queer (or at least bisexual) she hangs out with murderers and she likes racists as long as they are black and hate white men and she also adores women who hate heterosexual males.

Margaret, whereas some people make us wonder if they are complete idiots, you and people like the above friends of yours, along with Al Franken and crew, open your collective mouths and erase all doubt. Thank you for letting us know where you stand. Thank you for helping us identify mealy mouthed liberal ideology for what it is. Thank you for showing us what true liberalism is all about. Thank you for letting us see that true liberalism is about sexual debauchery, lawlessness, lies, hypocrisy, racism, violence and intolerance. Thank you for showing us that conservatism is truly about individual freedom and individual responsibility for ones life, whereas liberalism is about group mentality and blaming others for the consequences of individual choice. Thank you for showing us that conservatism is about the individual, rather than the group. Thank you so very much for showing us why liberalism is dead.

As a conservative, I owe you a deep debt of gratitude. Thank you for letting me speak my truth. Thank you for being so damn tolerant of my truth. Thank you for hearing me. Thank you for validating me as an individual and honoring me. Thank you for embracing me, even though my views differ from yours. Thanks Margaret.

A fan?? Nah. Just some guy who could care less about your "star" status. Heck, I didn't even know who you were until I saw a picture of you on Drudge. Yes, you had a great picture on www.drudgereport.com, with your rather bulbous and large face, contorted as though you were being given an anal exam by a proctologist with a mean streak. One can only hope, I suppose.

Have a nice day.

Timothy

----- Original Message -----
From: Ray
To: margaret
Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 4:56 PM
Subject: Comments on your Bush bashing.

You are a sad and descriptive expression of the truth of total depravity. You will see the day that you cry to be hidden from the one who sits on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb. Mark it down. The Day of Wrath will come, and it will not be "God is Allah, God is Buddha, God is Beyonce."
See ya' then...

Ray

----- Original Message -----
From: Kenneth
To: margaret
Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 3:39 PM
Subject: moveon.org

I'm really glad that you post your appearance and tv schedule so I can determine your sponsors. I will be very diligent in making sure that your sponsors realize how much you have alienated the south by your ignorant comments. I'm sure the folks in Athens will be eager to give you a big heaping dose of southern hospitality on the 29th. Personally I hope to hear that you catch the funk from a toilet seat and rot from the ass up!

----- Original Message -----
From: Ken
To: margaret
Cc: karen
Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 10:17 PM
Subject: Anti-American

By reading the DrudgeReport - I have seen you support being anti-american. I will NEVER pay to see you or support anything you stand for.

Take your fat chink ass back to wherever the fuck you came from. Or go live in one of the other terrorist nations (such as France) where you'll feel more at home.

Dirtbag.

----- Original Message -----
From: "DA"
To: Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 10:52 PM
Subject: Hey Marge!

Dear Miss Cho,

You remind me of a Korean friend of mine. Angry,
cheap, ugly, and has a chip on his shoulder like
you...

By the way.. you are one fat, ugly, woman...Hope
someday you can get that chip off of your shoulder.

----- Original Message -----
From: Newport
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 2:19 AM
Subject: HOG!!

I caught your 'Mad Hog' imitation on the MoveSoon.org tirade. Is there some law that angry liberal female comics must be hard to look at?

You are a waste of good air.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Jeff"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 5:26 AM
Subject: Go Home

There is a reason your once large fan following has
dwindled down to a fraction of what it once was.
Please go back to your native land your overweight,
fisting lesbian. America has no room for your kind of
intolerant hate-spreading. Why don't YOU fucking
apply yourself? You might find a better world that
has always existed without the rage which fills your
obsese veins.

----- Original Message -----
From: Jeff
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 6:11 AM
Subject: Goodbye

1/14/04

Nice going you insulted people in the south.People
who are religious.All people who are Republican.
And used one hell of a lot of profanity.

I hope you enjoyed your career.Say hi to the Dixie Chicks
for me.

Jeff
Cape Coral Fl.

----- Original Message -----
From: "Levay"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:10 AM
Subject: Your recent comments on our President at Moveon.org rally

I was very offended by the vile comments you made on President Bush in your
recent Moveon.org advertising rally. If you do not like this and it
leadership country, you can go back to Asia where you belong. I am sure the
Red Chinese would make short work of your uncivil tongue, if you spoke of
them that way.

Sincerely,

Craig
Oakdale, Minnesota

----- Original Message -----
From: FOOD
To: margaret
Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 9:36 AM
Subject: Bush

Screw you communist and all your Bush Bashing. Get used to it he's getting re-elected.HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

----- Original Message -----
From: "Mark"
To: Sent: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 3:45 PM
Subject: awsome

What a fuckin' fat cunt

----- Original Message -----
From: "Mark"
To: Sent: Friday, January 16, 2004 7:22 AM
Subject: apology

Margaret-
I'm writing to say I'm sorry for using vile words in my previous email to
you. Uncharacteristically, I got wrapped up in the hateful political dialog
that seems to be too common these days. For that, I apologize.
Judging from the outpouring of support you have around the country, your fan
base is very loyal and committed. Please pass along my apology to them
also.
Sincerely,
Mark

----- Original Message -----
From: "Mark"
To: "Karen
Sent: Friday, January 16, 2004 8:58 PM
Subject: Re: Email listed

Karen-
I honestly can't tell you how bad I feel about this whole episode. I
started out feeling like you folks were the unreasonable ones and now I find
myself feeling really ashamed. I am the father of a daughter, the husband of a
wife, the son of a mother and the brother of a sister and I feel like I owe them
an apology also--although I'll never be brave enough to do so.
Thank you for being the bigger person.
Mark

---- Original Message -----
From: "Kevin" Last name and address deleted upon request and receipt of sincere apology.*
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 3:49 AM
Subject: your are not funny, but you are a good example....

of what's great about this country. an asian woman can grow nice and
plump in this country...hey just like you did...eating sourdough and
those huge sf style scones.....no more seaweed paper for you.

then, only in this country, you can look like a stuck pig (see
http://www.drudgereport.com) and spout inane, vulgar,
untruths....that are bought only in your adopted home town of sf.

now, don't you want to change your tune a bit about the government
and all the bologney....when the lights go out at night do you really
believe it, or do you look down at your belly, think about all those
organic potato chips and sugar laden odwalla's, you think about your
freedom on the stage, and you look at your success.....only in
america my little piggie.

your stocks are up, you and your friends are all at work, you don't
have a president getting blowjobs in the whitehouse anymore and he's
advanced the largest government hand outs in decades.

why are you so angry.....the notorious p-i-g.
--
Kevin

*Please consider this a written apology for my remarks regarding margaret cho. My comments were a knee jerk reaction to a
story i read about her on the internet. in the future, i will keep unkind remarks to myself. thank you for your response.

Kevin

----- Original Message -----
From: Last name and address deleted upon receipt of sincere apology.*
To: margaret
Sent: Monday, January 12, 2004 5:01 PM
Subject: a big fan!

I read a transcript of your remarks about President Bush.

Why don’t take your slant-eyed ass back to the orient if you don’t like it here, you worthless troll.

Sam

*I am so ashamed of myself for sending that awful e-mail. Please forgive me. I allowed the heat of the moment of reading your comments get to me. Believe it or not, I am a Christian and it was so wrong of me to say those mean things.

Again, my sincere apologies.

May God bless,
Sam

—– Original Message —–
From:
To: Subject: oh my god, you stupid pig-whore!

how could you say such things about our wonderful president? if it
weren't for right-minded men like him, your fat dyke self wouldn't even
be allowed to speak! why, you'd still be picking seaweed in the fields
of bangkok!1!

----- Original Message -----
From:
To: Subject: oh mahh gawddd! i am sooo sorry! ahhh!

plz disregard my previous email!

sincerely,
will

----- Original Message -----

From: "Terry"
To: Sent: Wednesday, January 14, 2004 6:25 AM
Subject: moooo

ya know, I always felt sorry for you for being so fat and not even the least
bit funny but after reading about your comments at the "Bush Bash" I have
even bigger reasons now. Listen you fat fucking bitch, you are supposed to
eat the cream filling in the 35 twinkies that you eat a day...not snort it.
"Kill for oil"???? You fucking liberals are so stupid...but hey, let's read
what a few of your fellow Democrats have said...

> “One way or the other, we are determined to deny Iraq the capacity
> to develop weapons of mass destruction and the missiles to deliver
> them. That is our bottom line.”
>- President Clinton, Feb. 4, 1998
>
>
> “If Saddam rejects peace and we have to use force, our purpose is clear.
> We want to seriously diminish the threat posed by Iraq’s weapons of mass
> destruction program.”
> - President Clinton, Feb. 17, 1998
>
> “Iraq is a long way from [here], but what happens there matters a
> great deal here. For the risks that the leaders of a rogue state will
> use nuclear, chemical or biological weapons against us or our allies is the greatest
> security threat we face.”
>- Madeline Albright, Feb 18, 1998
>
> “He will use those weapons of mass destruction again, as he has ten
> times since 1983.”
> - Sandy Berger, Clinton National Security Adviser, Feb, 18, 1998
>
> “[W]e urge you, after consulting with Congress, and consistent
> with the U.S. Constitution and laws, to take necessary actions
> (including, if appropriate, air and missile strikes on suspect Iraqi sites) to respond
> effectively to the threat posed by Iraq’s refusal to end its weapons of
> mass destruction programs.”
> - Letter to President Clinton, signed by Sens. Carl Levin, Tom
> Daschle, John Kerry, and others Oct. 9, 1998
>
> “Saddam Hussein has been engaged in the development of weapons of
> mass destruction technology which is a threat to countries in the
> region and he has made a mockery of the weapons inspection process.”
> - Rep. Nancy Pelosi (D, CA), Dec. 16, 1998
>
> “Hussein has … chosen to spend his money on building weapons of
> mass destruction and palaces for his cronies.”
> - Madeline Albright, Clinton Secretary of State, Nov. 10, 1999
>
> “There is no doubt that … Saddam Hussein has invigorated his
> weapons programs. Reports indicate that biological, chemical and
> nuclear programs continue apace and may be back to pre-Gulf War status. In
> addition, Saddam continues to redefine delivery systems and is doubtless
> using the cover of an ilicit missile program to develop longer-range missiles
> that will threaten the United States and our allies.”
> - Letter to President Bush, Signed by Sen. Bob Graham (D, FL,) and
> others, December 5, 2001
>
> “We begin with the common belief that Saddam Hussein is a tyrant
> and a threat to the peace and stability of the region. He has ignored
> the mandated of the United Nations and is building weapons of mass
> destruction and the means of delivering them.”
> - Sen. Carl Levin (D, MI), Sept. 19, 2002
>
> “We know that he has stored secret supplies of biological and
> chemical weapons throughout his country.”
> - Al Gore, Sept. 23, 2002
>
> “Iraq’s search for weapons of mass destruction has proven
> impossible to deter and we should assume that it will continue for as
> long as Saddam is in power.”
> - Al Gore, Sept. 23, 2002
>
>
> “We have known for many years that Saddam Hussein is seeking and
> developing weapons of mass destruction.”
> - Sen. Ted Kennedy (D, MA), Sept. 27, 2002
>
> “The last UN weapons inspectors left Iraq in October of 1998. We
> are confident that Saddam Hussein retains some stockpiles of chemical
> and biological weapons, and that he has since embarked on a crash
> course to build up his chemical and biological warfare capabilities.
> Intelligence reports indicate that he is seeking nuclear weapons…”
> - Sen. Robert Byrd (D, WV), Oct. 3, 2002
>
> “I will be voting to give the President of the United States the
> authority to use force– if necessary– to disarm Saddam Hussein because
> I believe that a deadly arsenal of weapons of mass destruction in his
> hands is a real and grave threat to our security.”
> - Sen. John F. Kerry (D, MA), Oct. 9, 2002
>
> “There is unmistakable evidence that Saddam Hussein is working
> aggressively to develop nuclear weapons and will likely have nuclear weapons
> within the next five years … We also should remember we have always
> underestimated the progress Saddam has made in development of weapons of
> mass destruction.”
> - Sen. Jay Rockefeller (D, WV), Oct 10, 2002
>
> “He has systematically violated, over the course of the past 11
> years, every significant UN resolution that has demanded that he disarm
> and destroy his chemical and biological weapons, and any nuclear capacity.
> This he has refused to do”
> Rep. Henry Waxman (D, CA), Oct. 10, 2002
>
> “In the four years since the inspectors left, intelligence reports
> show that Saddam Hussein has worked to rebuild his chemical and
> biological weapons stock, his missile delivery capability, and his nuclear program.
> He has also given aid, comfort, and sanctuary to terrorists, including al
> Qaeda members .. It is clear, however, that if left unchecked, Saddam
> Hussein will continue to increase his capacity to wage biological and
> chemical warfare, and will keep trying to develop nuclear weapons.”
> - Sen. Hillary Clinton (D, NY), Oct 10, 2002
>
> “We are in possession of what I think to be compelling evidence
> that Saddam Hussein has, and has had for a number of years, a developing
> capacity for the production and storage of weapons of mass destruction.”
> - Sen. Bob Graham (D, FL), Dec. 8, 2002
>
> “Without question, we need to disarm Saddam Hussein. He is a
> brutal, murderous dictator, leading an oppressive regime … He presents
> a particularly grievous threat because he is so consistently prone to
> miscalculation … And now he is miscalculating America’s response
> to his continued deceit and his consistent grasp for weapons of mass
> destruction… So the threat of Saddam Hussein with weapons of mass
> destruction is real.”
> Sen. John F. Kerry (D, MA), Jan. 23. 2003

SO NOW THE DEMOCRATS SAY PRESIDENT BUSH LIED, THAT THERE NEVER WERE
ANY WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION AND HE TOOK US TO WAR FOR HIS OIL
BUDDIES???
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM………………………

Bitch I am from the south and proud of it…at least I can’t be blindfolded
with dental floss. And I saw your picture from the other night and it looks
like you have more chins under your mouth than you had at your family
reunion!!! I am soooo fucking sure that Al Gore would have been a better
president… in case you don’t remember Al was from TN (the south, you
bitch) and Clinton was from Arkansas (also the SOUTH, bitch) and Bush won
both of those states in the election. And before you start crying about
Florida remember this bitch…all Al Gore had to do was win in his home
state and Florida would not have mattered but his sorry ass couldn’t even do that. Get a grip bitch… stick to eating twinkies, it’s the ONLY thing you
are good at.

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Thank you Jess, for the topic today. Jess is a young woman with an amazing mind and is a person who makes me really trust that our future will be secure and we will not blow ourselves up and forever have to live in a really dusty plain where we have to build walls with old tires and fortress ourselves within them, because everyone is killing each other over gasoline and dog food that we have to eat with our hands. Thank you Jess for being smart and beautiful and political and knowing it up and down with the rocking knowledge, which is the way her good mama raised her. Shout out to Jess and Jess’ mama!!! For real tho!!!! Jess was peeping CNN where again the dummies that go on and on until the break of dawn about how the morning after pill spreads stds and unwanted pregnancy. This is just in line with the ridiculous logic that abstinence is the only way to teach the younger generation about sex. Your body says one thing - like “This feeling that I have inside is soooo goood and I want to do it, and here is whoever who is gonna do it with me, I don’t really understand because everyone is telling me to practice abstinence, but fuck that. So, since we are both in trouble anyway - fuck it. LET’S DO DIS!!!” Preaching abstinence is not right, is not realistic, is just stoopid, ignant, duh-duh-duhm.

Remember that girl who went to France to take RU-486 and then get right back on the plane to return to the US to flashing cameras and police? What the fuck is wrong with people? I am not saying that everyone should fuck themselves insane BONOBO (pansexual apes that are out closest living relatives that negate the ‘homosexuality is not found in nature’ argument) style and then throw their shit all over the place, but what is this puritanical attitude? Like she needed a big “A” sewn on her chest to show all that she ABORTED. I want to sew a big “I” for ignant on everyone involved with putting this woman through fucking hell for having a body and the courage to do what she wanted with it.

Plan B should not be up for review. There should never have been a recall. We never finished counting the votes from 2000.

What is Plan A? Abstinence? And we got rights over everybody and their mama’s uterus? Put it in the A-SS only?

I am not pro-death. I am pro-choice. I am of the mind that young people will find a way to do what they naturally will do without possibly hurting themselves even if we tell them NOT TO DO IT. Young people have strong emotions, intense hormones that will not be silenced as easily as saying A-B-S-T-I-N-E-N-C-E. What they need is education, options, condoms, counseling, help, confidence, gentle awareness, trust in teachers, confidentiality, equality, reality, the fucking truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help us all God - not GUILT.

Because ABSTINENCE = GUILT.
Guilt = Low self-esteem.
Low self-esteem = everything you going to get if you offer only abstinence as your only solution.

I think that if they are looking at Plan B and they are thinking about getting rid of it, then I would like to propose Plan C.

C stands for CUNT. Not a curse word, not a slur, not a bad thing. As Inga Muscio’s brilliant and important book of the same name, CUNT is the celebration of the woman and the world, as we are one and the same. We would have no world without the CUNT, so anyone who uses this as a negative, transgressive word, is denying the fact they are alive. We are all born from cunts. Where we all have as a human race, our very first home address. No matter where your mail gets forwarded now, everyone everywhere ever had this on their mailbox first -

Me, CUNT, The World.

This makes the cunt powerful. And that power includes the power of choice, the power of knowledge, the power of attorney, the power of cunnilingus, the power of veto, the power of everything it wants and DOES NOT WANT anytime, anywhere, anyway all the time for all time. For real. That is what I am talking about.

“And if you want to argue with me you better call TYRONE.”-Erykah Badu

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Courtney Love is the white Whitney Houston. Houston had a considerably higher profile, making a splash in the 80s with her pyramid perm and octaroon beauty, she looked white enough to be unthreatening to the dominant culture, yet still was a descendent of R&B royalty. When she sang the powerhouse hit “I’m Every Woman” we all believed her. She made love with Kevin Costner on the big screen, the whitest dude outside of the John Birch Society, and made a huge hit out of “My Bodyguard,” not to be confused with the brilliant ’70s film starring Chris Makepeace. Her follow-up film, “The Preacher’s Wife,” was not so successful, possibly because she was paired with Denzel Washington and in the unwritten laws of race in Hollywood, her “Imitation of Life” identity became tarnished, as in her cinematic union with another Black actor, made her darker by proxy. Whitney didn’t get better, as she started on a downward spiral, and unraveling of her ‘passable’ status that was unfairly begun by her marriage to a self-diagnosed ‘bad boy’ with his own ‘prerogative,’ Bobby Brown, a marginally criminal drug addict, who happened to be a Black man, making the American public realize that in fact, Whitney, despite all her attempts, unintentional and unfairly presented, that she was not white, and thereafter fell from grace in the glare of the media spotlight. Now she is considered a visual joke, a train wreck. All her glorious talent seems to have not made a dent in the creepy culture vulture den and there is never anything to report any longer about her except for her inexplicable forays into Middle Eastern countries and bailing her husband out of jail.

Love, also of inestimable talent, is slightly different in her history, yet she is considered a nutcase of the highest order in the same Whitney-esque fashion. She shows up and is photographed as unflatteringly as possible time and time again, emaciated from drugs and misquoted to the point of mania, in order to punish the fact that she is a successful woman, despite her husband’s tragic end and her own personal lifetime bout with narcotics.

Nirvana’s Kurt Cobain is without a doubt one of music’s most influential figures and his legacy will live forever in the annals of rock history, but in the talent department, Love is certainly no slouch. Her band, Hole, is a magnificent display of female angst and sexual predatory power. I love Courtney because she is unapologetically herself and intimidatingly intelligent despite all the media attempts to make her less so. Her latest war with the former members of Nirvana are a good example of how the media will immediately side with the boys against her, as she is vilified, considered a shrill, unbelievable harpie. It is often speculated “If he had to be married to her, no wonder he shot himself in the head.” Facts notwithstanding, no one was willing to side with her, in the tug of war of unreleased tracks, Kurt’s farewell to a cruel world. By rights, as executor of Cobain’s estate, Love owns the music. She may not have written the songs, she may not have been a supermodel rock wife, she did drugs with Kurt, but she also was trying to get him into detox. Love desperately tried to save Kurt’s life. Kurt did not want help, and as we now know, did not want to be Kurt anymore. Cobain’s music lives on, even if he is no longer on the earth, and Love is responsible for the maintenance and respectable distribution of her late husband’s legacy.

The latest Courtney conundrum has her facing possible sentencing and the loss of her daughter with Cobain, Frances Bean. The drugs she is accused of possessing are Hydrocondone and Oxycontin, the exact same deadly combination that got Rush Limbaugh in such trouble a mere five weeks ago. She brilliantly quipped, “It wasn’t like I was shoplifting or anything.” Of course, the media spin on it was that she was just being her loony Vagina Dentata self, and what could anyone expect from her really. So if we prosecute the abusers of drugs, why is it not done with equal measure? Rush Limbaugh, on the opposite side of the political spectrum, did the same drugs, likely, more of them, at least according to the sources that he procured them from. Why does Rush not face the same predicament? What is the difference? The inequality here is unspeakably clear. Rush, once out of rehab will have a job waiting for him as the highest rated radio talk show host in America. Most likely, this scandal will make his popularity soar, as more will tune in just to see if he will fall back off the pharmaceutical wagon again. Why are we threatening to take away Courtney Love’s child, as Eminem proudly displays a tattoo of a Vicodin pill on his arm? Double standards rule, even in counterculture, where they are supposedly above that, which makes the whole shebang all the more criminal. Free Courtney. Maybe get her another nanny, but free Courtney.

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It is just Fashion Week here in LA, which sounds funny and sad because there is a notion that fashion doesn’t exist here, but oh child, it does, it really does. There is the army of tiny blonde girls with tight, narrow legged bleached out expensive jeans and leather jackets that could have only come from the boy’s department at Sears in 1987, with their strawlike hair held back with pink barrettes to showcase the thin layer of fur covering their faces, one of the symptoms of late stage chronic anorexia nervosa. They are the designers, the stylists, blue jean baby, LA lady, seamstress for the band. Their pieces, tops too small for anyone to get both their shoulder blades into, pants that don’t include the option of ass, fabrics that will not, can not, do not give, terribly uncharitable fabrics as they are. The dresses almost without exception zip up the side, giving the maximum opportunity for any flesh you might have there to get caught in the metal teeth causing a kind of special pain that only a true fascist follower of fashion can understand. They have names like Playdate, Immature, Infantile, Poopoo, Doodoo, Awww, Googoo, Gaagaa and they are all about regression, the Lolita as working woman ready to conquer the world in diapers. The big department stores buy them up like the delicious hot dogs sold from carts by freeway underpasses all over downtown LA late at night, for the li’l girl look never seems to go out of style, and there is big business in the baby-fication of women.

It has been heard through the most reliable sources that my line, High Class Cho, a celebration - not denigration - of women, is not well received in the ranks of the kinderwear clothiers. One ‘celebrity stylist’ was quoted as saying that my clothes were ’soooooo baaaddd’ and pointed out the fact that I had not been renowned for my fashion sense. In their opinion, I dress ‘badly’ because beauty is something that is self defined, not defined by ‘them’ and there are times when odd and outrageous beats bland and ‘just like everyone else.’ Plus, I don’t fit the sample sizes that designers provide the stars with to wear at the splashy Hollywood events that we set the fashion barometers to every few weeks, so why bother trying? No, I cannot lay down with a hanger hooked on a zipper trying to mash my fleshy body into a dress too small for me. I have done enough of it in my life and it just doesn’t work. I have come to know that fashion hates women and so I have decided to hate fashion. Fuck the ‘celebrity stylists,’ the style council, the Emperor’s new hos. Take your little lady bows and deconstructed tops and shove them up your ass, hard, in wadded up balls, no Vaseline. Don’t forget to stick a couple of strappy sandals in there too, heel first.

I buy a lot of things on Ebay because I like dead people’s stuff and it is cheap. The style consultant for Ebay, which is a formidable resource for the truly stylish, doesn’t direct anyone to what would be really fabulous to wear, like velvet opera coats from the 20s or MC Hammer pants, but to what was on the fashion pages months before, and so he sends the erstwhile consumer on a wild goose chase for items long purchased with the “Buy It Now” option and no longer exist. He has no imagination, nor respect for a woman’s body, but what do we expect from the fashion industry? Why would we think that they would want anyone to feel good about themselves? The whole juggernaut is built on the idea that we are unable to live happily just as ourselves, that there needs to be some type of guidance, what needs to be worn this season, what we need to have our bodies conform to, what our hair needs to be, what the Hollywood stars are doing, that we must be fucked with, or at the very least fuck with ourselves in order to achieve happiness in life.

If we were to just accept how we look and dress how we want, know that we are beautiful, know that fashion is what makes you insecure enough to make you spend your money, and style is what makes you feel like you look hot, the industry would eat itself from the inside out. The Tiny Dancers will just shrivel up and die, or at best, eat something. The way I wanted to make clothes was to remember what it feels like to put something on that fits, that feels so good, that you don’t want to take it off, that in your imagination, when you see yourself happy and lovely, walking through a heavenly late morning spring mist just burning off with rays from the noon sun, armed with a picnic basket filled with runny cheeses and baguettes and chocolates, to meet your most adored lover, somewhere deep in a friendly forest, you are wearing that dress. That you will lay down in that dress, that you will be fed in that dress, that you will be kissed in that dress, that you will make love in that dress and never think once while it is happening that something might rip, you shouldn’t be sitting down, there might be a bulge here or there you have to hide, that you will be free to move, eat, love. If that is ’soooo baaaaaddd’ then let it be bad. I don’t give a shit.

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I have lost some weight which has set off a strange wave of paranoia among people that I have either had my stomach stapled or shut off with a rubber band, or am on some freaky raw food diet or whatever.

What happened was that I was fucking sick and tired of dieting and working out. I fucking was sick and tired of buying clothes that were too small for me so I could ‘thin into them.’ I was fucking sick and tired of eating 5 to 7 small meals a day. I was sick and tired of no carbs. I was fucking sick and tired of thinking about food and not thinking about food. I was fucking sick and tired of my trainer and any type of exercise. I went to a nutritionist and I lost a lot - of money. I never left his office without dropping at least a grand on bullshit. Shakes, pills, supplements, food substitutes, exercise programs. I said “FUCKING FUCK THIS FUCK IT FUCK IT SERIOUSLY FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK FUCK FUCK IT!!!!”

I stopped going to Fred Segal and getting the one thing in the whole store that fit me. I started buying clothes that fucking fit me, like now. I put away all notions of what diets meant to me, what I was supposed to eat and not supposed to eat. I altogether lost the thought process that carried me through my life - my dieting and exercise regimen - and started thinking about the people I loved, hated, tolerated, laughed at, laughed with. There was a lot of time to read. I wanted to watch old movies. I ate a lot of shitty food. I gained some weight and it was scary. But it didn’t really make a difference. Fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck it. I stopped exercising, and started writing. I played with my dogs. I looked at shit on Ebay. I started to eat what I wanted - and kept doing it. Not a food vacation - not a respite between diets. I just was going to eat eat eat eat eat eat and fucking eat some more.

Then, I kind of started to get weirdly thinner. I get it now. Because I don’t care about food, it is there when I want it, I don’t crave it and want it and think about it. Since I can have everything, nothing is that important. I don’t need to eat a whole cake because I can eat a whole cake every day every meal if I want and I don’t care. I don’t prepare to eat because I might be hungry later and ‘they’ won’t have what I have to eat. When I am hungry, I eat. You know, that is what the weird diet is.

Here is what I usually eat every day. In the morning I have a bowl of cereal with two kinds mixed, granola and LIFE. If I am in a hotel, I have granola and yogurt, croissants, one chocolate and one regular and then a big cranberry juice. I drink a lot of water, and a lot of lemonade, regular COKE - no diet anything ever. After that, I usually eat a peanut butter cup or something like that. Then I get to work, which is writing usually, recording sometimes, interviews, etc.. I get hungry later around early afternoon, and so I eat what I think is a good thing at the moment, which could be mac and cheese, or pizza. I eat as much as I want, but it is usually too rich to eat all of it and since I am not dieting and I don’t need to cram the forbidden food in before the diet starts up again, I eat as much as I feel good eating and leave the rest. I leave a lot on the plate because I need not clean my plate. Why? I don’t have to. And the value of not having to finish all my food, probably has been the biggest contributor to my healing around food. I used to feel like I needed to eat all of it, all and then some, but actually, it doesn’t feel good to do that. It doesn’t taste good. I can have more when I am hungry again. I eat dinner late, usually with friends. I like appetizers. I will order 3-4 types, so I can have a variety of edible treats, instead of an entrée. If I order entrees, it would be more than one, because I deserve to eat what I like. I never eat leftovers. I never take anything home. I never eat anything that doesn’t taste heavenly. I never eat when I am not hungry. I never let myself get too hungry. I never deny myself a fucking thing because I have denied myself enough for 1000 lifetimes and there is no more denial for me in the way that I live. I deserve all the mozzarella sticks, all the fucking chocolate, all the fucking pizza, all the chicken a’la king, and I deserve to leave what I don’t finish on the plate.

So there you go. Big secret diet. Love. Love and the audacity to actually waste food.

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